i have 2 nieces. my brother always trusted me to take care of them. him and his wife, no disrespect, are actually kinda bad parents so whenever the girls see me they get so ahppy and tell me how their day was and or anything and they wanna play with me all the time but i struggle with myself alot so ya. i see the wrong things their parents do and i just form it into something good in my mind. from their experience i really just see bad parenting and i really wanna help his kids but i cant. i wouldnt wanna intrude their way of parenting. so here i am. if i cant help them id like to do this and care for other children and also learn for myself for the my future kids. the way i life live right now does not fit into my needs and i would do literally anything and every thing to help myself and others. i love helping others. helping others helps me :). im a kindhearted peaceful soul that would to bring the good out in anyone. ive tried lots of things to help myself but never this. this might be perfect for me. no selfishness in me either, i love helping anyone if i cant help myself.